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Free Credit Card

Today was no different than any other day, working my a** of*, but yet i could spend some time blogging....hehehe...anyways, while i was thinking and thinking how this stupid figure came from... a gentlemen approached me and guess what...he offered a free credit card...shhesshhhh... after tones of times explaining to him i'v had enuff already..any my cc debt is pilling every time ..he just dont get the message, and how on earth can he accessed to my dept ! I just dont care if its free of life or low in interest rate or u have lots of freebies...i just dont want another CC...!! Thank u very much. ! err...no offense to all my dearest frens who work with the finance inst. i m sure u know how i felt.

Happy Birthday JUNE !!!!

Its almost a year since I wrote sumthg in this blog...wallauwehhh...lamanyerrrr...anyways, i was visiting a colleague's blog and reading his blog makes me "senyum- senyum mcm kambing"...wic reminds me of my own blog.. So many things happen and din regret any of it, still manage to go travel these days with my own pocket money. Just came back from KK last May'08, went there for a kazen's wed and July there's another one and yes another one in August....i guess this is where the privillage come when ur single and free. = ) gotta enjoy every minute of it before someone tight u down.....tra la la la...till next time...works' pilling on  my table.. duh !!!!!

Love is Cinta

Love is Not Cinta...at least thts what i thot after watching the movie last nite. Ive been an indonesian film fan for quite some time now, senang banget dhong... ada apa dengan cinta, heart, jatuh cinta lagi, berbagi suami (panasssss!!!), 30 hari mencari cinta..just to name a few.. But for those yang pengen nonton filem ini dibioskop (cinema), i suggest better not...i was kinda dissapointed with the whole story maybe cz i dont like how CINTA was potrayed in that movie.

The storyline was between CINTA & RYAN who were bestfren and they did everything together and know in/out of each other. One fine day, Ryan had to leave for US to futher his study and left CINTA behind. CINTA wanted Ryan to declare his love to her but instead all she get was ' Aku Sayang Kamu' ... and CINTA was dissapointed to hear tht. I dunno how on earth lah si Cinta nak sangat Ryan tuh cakap 143 bila dia sendiri tak cakap pasal perasaan dia dengan Ryan, dahlah Ryan tuh mati pun masih nak benci mamat kesian tul .... she shud honored him and respect him as he din even catch the plane to US instead turn back to look for CINTA....and the ending was the worst part...tak masuk dek akal tul lahh...!! adeiiiii.

I guess i believe on how u shud express wat u really felt for that someone. Never let the moment pass u by. Never take his/her presence for granted. If he/she dont feel the same way as you do, at least you dont owe anything to yourself and take it as a bless coz u know it before its too late.  and after tht sendiri mau ingatlah .....

Ohh one more thing.. a lesson to learn.. Men + Women (or boys & girls) can never be bestfren... thts the fact. trust me. if it does, one way or another u will tresspassing the boundary and thgs will never be the same again.... duh !

p/s - where got the talking teddy bear ah??

im bored...

im bored right here right now and this is what i do, write in in the stup*&# blog of mine...kali ni nak complain pasal apa yerr..haa, im supposed to prepare for co's family day speech, and i dunno how and where to start. aduiiii....this is the 1st family day for my co and being the first president of the club i have to deliver a magnificent speech...chehhh..in my dreamlah magnificent. Alamak...so much to do so little time, and here we are...august is approaching, ramadhan is approaching, raya is just 2 mths away ....what did i do for the past 7 mths of my life this year, what was my resolution again?? O'O...cant remember pulak, ehh, ada mehh??...lookin back...errr....org kata 'jangan pandang belakang' ..so kita tengok depan jaklah ahh...

August...Malaysia will be 50 yrs old...hmmm..4th August got family day...and yess im aiming the home theatre for the lucky draw tht nite..and im planning to go Mabul again on the 2nd week of August...hopefully its not raining and this time nak stay dekat SMART (Sipadan Mabul Resort) such a lovely place to stay....hmmm, ada org nak ikut tak ni?? 3rd week of August will be Sufi's aqeeqah so cant go anywhere, stay home tolong tis and that ....and 4th week of August..i wonder if the plan to Jakarta/Bali/Bandung jadik ....waahhhh, best.... !

September.....Ramadhan dahhh...prefer stay home and do my puasa...and ohh, this is the time to test my cooking skills, wonder if i can do wonders...hmmm...as usual, kuih raya kena tempah, rasanya this year nak order Kek Sarawak frm Abg Syah ...

October .... Raya time ....!!! and im planning nak buat MYOWN Raya Open House..yeaaa yeaaa... !!! Gotta save from now..or else tak jadik...

November .... KL & KK - CT's gettin married in Dec so we r planning to go for shopping during the NAC conference in KL and after that..BAchelor party for CT either in NExus or Rasa Ria....yeaaaa....talk abt KL, im so sorry Lisa..as i promised earlier tht we gonna hv x-stpats gathering class 93 tak pernah nak jadik...if my visits this time pun tak jadik, hopefully can make it in December...and yea sum1 promise to cook for me *wink wink*....

December ........ year end....dah promise my kazen Leena to have our year end holiday to KL together end of December & celebrate NY 2008 ....and b4 tht Hari Raya Haji...and 21st is CT's wedding...ehhh..hows Vancover with Ina? hehehe...and dad promised me Beijing..pa,its July alreadyyyy!!!

im bored still n sleepy...and suddenly this pops into my head...sumone is missing me and i feel bad thinking abt it cz thts not supposed to happen....makes my heart ache ..... what have i done?

PeRsaHaBaTan

Dan seorang remaja berkata, Bicaralah pada kami tentang Persahabatan.

Dan dia  menjawab:
Sahabat adalah keperluan jiwa, yang mesti dipenuhi.
Dialah ladang hati, yang kau taburi dengan kasih dan kau tuai dengan penuh rasa terima kasih.
Dan dia pulalah naungan dan pendianganmu.
Kerana kau menghampirinya saat hati lupa dan mencarinya saat jiwa mahu kedamaian.

Bila dia berbicara, mengungkapkan fikirannya, kau tiada takut membisikkan kata “Tidak” di kalbumu sendiri, pun tiada kau menyembunyikan kata “Ya”.
Dan bilamana dia diam,hatimu berhenti dari mendengar hatinya; kerana tanpa ungkapan kata, dalam  persahabatan, segala fikiran, hasrat, dan keinginan dilahirkan bersama dan dikongsi, dengan kegembiraan tiada terkirakan.
Di kala berpisah dengan sahabat, tiadalah kau berdukacita;
Kerana yang paling kau kasihi dalam dirinya, mungkin kau nampak lebih jelas dalam ketiadaannya, bagai sebuah gunung bagi seorang pendaki, nampak lebih agung daripada tanah ngarai dataran.

Dan tiada maksud lain dari persahabatan kecuali saling memperkaya roh kejiwaan.
Kerana cinta yang mencari sesuatu di luar jangkauan misterinya, bukanlah cinta , tetapi sebuah jala yang ditebarkan: hanya menangkap yang tiada diharapkan.

Dan persembahkanlah yang terindah bagi sahabatmu.
Jika dia harus tahu musim surutmu, biarlah dia mengenali pula musim pasangmu.
Gerangan apa sahabat itu jika  kau sentiasa mencarinya, untuk sekadar bersama dalam membunuh waktu?
Carilah ia untuk bersama menghidupkan sang waktu!
Kerana dialah yang bisa mengisi kekuranganmu, bukan mengisi kekosonganmu.
Dan dalam manisnya persahabatan, biarkanlah ada tawa ria dan berkongsi kegembiraan..
Kerana dalam titisan kecil embun pagi, hati manusia menemui fajar dan ghairah segar kehidupan.

~ Khalil Gibran

Aku Sepatutnya Malu Menulis Surat Cinta Pada-MU

Aku Sepatutnya Malu Menulis Surat Cinta Kepadamu  Aku sepatutnya malu menulis surat cinta pada kerana ia tidak mungkin jadi sempurna dan setelah terlalu banyak mengingkari-Mu Kau mungkin tidak sedia menerima.

Mengapa harus aku tiba pada-Mu bagai seekor kupu-kupu yang meninggalkan rimbanya keragaman rahsia yang mentaati kata-kata “tidak kuberi ilmu melainkan sedikit sahaja” aku jadi marah pada ketetapan itu dan meluru menuju lampu tapi hanya terhumban pada kaca lalu jatuh ke kaki-Mu apakah kau sedia memaafkan carik-carik di kepakku?

Atau apakah kau sengaja memilih pertemuan begini untuk aku jadi lebih terpegun pada kesempurnaan jari-jari-Mu? Mengapa aku harus tiba pada-Mu bagai sungai yang menemui muaranya dalam murung rasa tua setelah terlalu banyak meronta mahu melepaskan diri dari sekatan tebingnya tapi hanya menambahkan bebanan sehingga tiba ada keluasan lautmu apakah Kau sedia memaafkan kekeruhan di tubuhku?

Atau apakah kau sengaja memilih pertemuan begini untuk aku jadi lebih terpesona pada kejernihan matamu? Kau terlalu banyak menyimpan keindahan mengapakah aku tidak melihatnya dahulu atau apakah Kau sengaja menyembunyikan supaya aku jadi lebih kasih pada-Mu?

~ Zurinah Hassan

Missing you my dearest sister.....

It pains me to see you leave,
But I never forget what I've learned through the years we've gone through.

It hurts me to know,
After awhile you'll confide in someone else, not me.

I'll always be there for you,
Even after the end is heaven comes.
I'll always stay true to our bond as one and won’t ever let go.

You are my sister,
And my very best friend of all time,
It's so true.
We'll be that way even after the end has come for us.

You are a part of me,
And never will you ever leave my heart.
All the times we've shared,
Even when we didn't really care at all.

Don't let anyone take my place,
They'll never face or change our times together.

The laughs,
The tears,
The fears,
They have built up through the years.

I'll never let us part,
Because you'll always have a special place in my heart.

i miss you ........ur lil sis.

1st Trip to Mabul Island, Semporna

 16 & 17 June 2007 - The original plan was to go to Roachreefs Resort wic is 45 mins from Tawau but wen we called them to confirm our booking it has to be postponed or we can only go there on the 17th June. Sadly enuff, roachreefs was cancelled. Sometimes, the last minute plan can be a good thg to do and this time with no second thot we r determined to go to Mabul .. thats what we did.

After few phone calls, Mabul Island is ready for us. As early as 7 am, we were ready to go and explore anything and everything. Its a different sight with a nice view from what ur seeing everyday. And all I can say, its a must have experience, tho' I dont have any license to swim (gosshh!! hehehe) I found snorkelling is worth trying...but diving?? Hmmm..thts hard, gotta hv license for that and the cost is about RM 800 - RM 1500. But wat u can find down there is worth more than the price uv paid. Betullahhhhh.......so,bila lah nak belajar diving ni? Hehehe...Gotta learn to swim first rite, at this age? Hmmm..Aiyaahhhhhh....wapuchetaulehhh...

Nice staffs, great hospitality, enchanting view, mesmerizing scenery, good food (hmm?), meeting new people, bubbly companion, handy camera, ........ and wen its time to leave..felt like i left something there, and sure enuff I'll come back again. With who & when ... u'll never know.

To my dearest companion for tht weekend - Mellisa Thas Rani Veerapathiran - Duh ! - u rock ! - hehehe...

the beach - THE BEGINNING

The sand underfoot feels like freedom.
The sea breeze smells of fond childhood memories.
And the sight of the infinite ocean horizon
touches my senses whenever I visit the beach.

The sea touches the land, in anger or with tender
caresses of it's earth hugging volume.
A persistent relationship that no soul doubts.

Unknown life exists deep in the oceans belly.
Hidden from mankind,
but aware of the constant increasing noise
that vibrates throughout the waters.

As though it was another planet
in the distance above the earth,
the deep ocean realm guards it's secrets.
Always there watching and waiting

for mankind to explore it's magnificence

- kinda miss it.......

MAMA said ......

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the
person we LoVe we fail to recognize & appreciate
the people who LoVe us.

We miss out on so many beautiful things & simply
because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our
own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of words
for you will find rewarding happiness not with the
man you LoVe but the man who LoVes you more.

The best LoVers are those who are capable of
LoVing from a distance, far enough to allow the
other person to grow, but never too far to feel the
LoVe deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to
stop LoVing, it only means that you allow that
person to find his own happiness without expecting
him to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free,
but it is also setting yourself free from all
bitterness, hatred, & anger that keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength &
weaken your faith & never allow pain to dishearten
you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing
it.

You may found peace in just LoVing someone from
a distance not expecting anything in return.

But be careful, for this can sustain life but can
never give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of
the past but real peace & happiness come only
with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance
upon someone so nice & beautiful and we just find
ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that
person.

This feeling soon become a part of our everyday
lives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions

The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that
this person feels nothing more for us than just a
friendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & be
closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded
& we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you LoVe.

What you need to learn is how to accept the
verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for
yourself.

Believe me; you would be better off giving that
dedication & LoVe to someone more deserving.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible & let
your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as
well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow:

If you lose LoVe that doesn't mean that you failed
in LoVe.

Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears
wash away the hurt & the bitterness that the past
has left with you.

Let go of yesterday & LoVe will find its way back to
you & when it does, pray that it may be the LoVe
that will stay & last a lifetime.